Monday, March 27, 2006
Last night my baby father excitedly insists on us watching 'Requiem for a Dream', and although it was compelling enough to keep me awake till such a late hour, his total enthusiasm for such a bleak depressing film has left me troubled.
He knew every scene inside out, obviously had watched it many times, he kept a constant commentary going all the way through on what exactly was happening at all times, less annoying for me than it sounds because it was a relief from the dire downward spiral of the story.
I guess Im wishing he wasn't so utterly fascinated by such dark and destructive matter, but he is. Deeply.
He clung to me tightly last night.
Anyways earlier on mothers day, my other baby father Hective, sent Vee and Ace around with the news that he and Hanna are expecting their first baby in October. The Children were most unsettled, but I tried to assure them everything would be alright, and that it definately didn't mean that their father would love them any less...
So things are yet again shifting within the family, Hective moves even further away from us, and I have to be even stronger for my two teenagers and make sure that nothing throws them off course.
He knew every scene inside out, obviously had watched it many times, he kept a constant commentary going all the way through on what exactly was happening at all times, less annoying for me than it sounds because it was a relief from the dire downward spiral of the story.
I guess Im wishing he wasn't so utterly fascinated by such dark and destructive matter, but he is. Deeply.
He clung to me tightly last night.
Anyways earlier on mothers day, my other baby father Hective, sent Vee and Ace around with the news that he and Hanna are expecting their first baby in October. The Children were most unsettled, but I tried to assure them everything would be alright, and that it definately didn't mean that their father would love them any less...
So things are yet again shifting within the family, Hective moves even further away from us, and I have to be even stronger for my two teenagers and make sure that nothing throws them off course.
Sunday, March 19, 2006
By the way, I dont know quite when I turned into her.<--
Monday, March 13, 2006
Ace is 13 on the 13th. She is splendid, and beautiful and so clever and amazing, and more than I ever could have expected...or dared hope for. Here's a picture of her taken on our estate.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
I was shocked and slightly horrified to see what has been done to St.Agnes place. Brutally, yet not completely demolished, houses still stand either end.One is even still occupied, but must be unstable surely, with its adjoining neighbour pulled down completely. The other end have been gutted. Windows pulled out, just shells really. A sad sight indeed.
I just had to write. Things have taken a step turn upwards. It feels as though there is a quickening in the air (not sure if that's a real expression or not) Anyway, these are suddenly quite exciting times. I have one or two interesting projects on the go and it feels fantastic. Links with the past are re-forming, and it would appear that the time spent in between for me, has not been wasted. All this internet stuff, well perhaps it has been for a purpose...Suddenly, my advise is sought and of course, I find it thrilling to be useful.
On a much more practical note, I have enrolled for my GCSE maths, so thats a tiny step towards progress, and my social life has picked up. All in all I feel positive and optimistic for the comming year.
